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Four Years Later...

"The peace and freedom achieved from quitting is magnificent and empowering."

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Updated May 21, 2008

Four Years Later...

Dee

Hope...

When I started this journey 4 years ago, I crossed my fingers, arms, legs and toes praying and hoping for a chance, any kind of chance to rid myself of my addiction to nicotine.

It was March 18, 2003 at 6:00 a.m...

With an almost 2 pack a day addiction; with a chest cold and horrible coughing that suggested that someone needed to take pity on me and make an immediate call to an ambulance service; there I was sitting on the side of the bed with a cigarette dangling from my mouth and lighter in hand trying to breath shallow little breaths so I wouldn’t cough my fool head off while lighting my first cigarette of the day.

Something snapped. I took a long hard look at the cigarette and lighter and threw them across the room. The rage that I felt was fierce. After smoking for more than 30 years, I hated it! I was no longer the sleek, sophisticated young woman holding her cigarette just so. I was a middle-aged (although still sleek and sophisticated *smile*) woman with a nasty, filthy addiction to nicotine. No amount of perfume could cover the stench.

No longer could I pretend that I could quit smoking at any time, if I really wanted to. The denial was over. I was consumed with the ritual and act of smoking. When I look back, I'm glad for the rage because it fueled my desire to quit and stay that way no matter what. I tossed two unopened packs and a carton of cigarettes I kept in the freezer (to make sure they were fresh) in the garbage.

Hope...

Quitting tobacco can be done. This was my first quit attempt, so it’s not a given that you have to go through several smoking relapses before your final quit. I’m proof that you can make your first quit stick and that you can even do it cold turkey if you choose to. Please be assured that quit aids are awesome if they help you succeed. What ever works, have at it!

Hope...

If you choose to be free, you can be, first by educating yourself about nicotine addiction and then by making it the highest priority in your life until you can relax into your quit program.

Hope...

The cravings and urges to smoke do become milder and less frequent faster than you might think, considering how long we spent tied to the habit of smoking. You can learn to live your life smoke free and continue to do all of the things you did when you smoked. You can survive all the bad times and the stress of life, even the good stresses, without smoking!

Hope...

This is the place to help smooth your way. The forum with its diversity of people and cultures, experience levels of quits from one hour newbies to olbies with five or more years offer a comfort zone of caring, hopefulness, nurturing and even a good swift kick in the butt when needed.

Hope...

At 4 years in, I am smoke-free, crave-free and sure that there is nothing and no one that can make me pick up a cigarette again. If I think about cigarettes, it’s only because someone has brought it to my attention either by smoking or reading/talking about it.

Hope...

The peace and freedom you will achieve from quitting tobacco is so magnificent and empowering that it will flow into all other aspects of your life.

Love yourself enough to be free!

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Dee's 5 Year Milestone

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