My Baby Girl...
- ...she's only one year old. I don't remember being one year old, chances are she won't remember being this age. I'd better be around later so she has a daddy. I love her too much to not be there.
- Last Straw? Heart attack on Monday. My heart actually stopped and had to be shocked in order to beat again.
- —Guest Leland
Regret+Shame of Being So Stupid+Guilt
- Smoked for 30 yrs of the prime of my life. Hundreds of false quits. In recent years, each time I would light up, the awareness that I couldn't list a single true benefit (not a single) and that the list of true harms was unending, kept getting stronger. Eventually, and thankfully, the sense of regret plus stupidity plus shame/guilt has pushed me way beyond the point of no return. Its been just 23 days, but its over. I am done. What really is helping me this time is my constant research, reminder, googling about the 'smoking' and 'quitting smoking' facts. There are enormous data, suggestions, tools, alternatives out there. My things is to educate myself, know facts and be aware of reality of things. The more I have become aware of the facts, the deeper is my resolve and deeper is my anger at the tobacco industry.
- —Guest Jamal
Tired of Smoking
- I am eight days in, and quit because I am tired of not being able to breathe. I hope by stopping I can start to breathe more easily again.
- —Guest PAM
Sick of Slavery and Health Negatives
- The last straw for me was that I knew I wasn't enjoying the majority of cigarettes that I smoked and I spent all of my time wishing even pleasant experiences away just so that I could have a smoke. I have also become very fit and health conscious lately and I felt guilty that smoking was pretty much undoing a lot of the hard work I was doing in the gym. I'm on day 6 of not smoking now and there are some serious ups and downs. It's crazy that even if you believe that smoking has no positives, you still have this intense desire to light up. I know that all it takes is one puff to go back to square one and I don't want to ever go through the hell of quitting again. I've made it through almost 6 days and for this effort to come to zero would depress the hell out of me. I suffer from depression and OCD and smoking cessation intensifies the feeling that life isn't worth living. This is what makes it so hard. I WILL do it though.
- —Guest Mark
23 Years Old with Cancer
- I've been smoking since I was 17. I just turned 23 and today I found out that I have oral cancer. I am 23 YEARS OLD. I know there are young people on here reading this and I know what you are thinking. Well, that's her and things like that don't happen to people like me. Well they do. QUIT QUIT QUIT now. Stop making excuses, stop saying I will tomorrow, quit right now and stop gambling with your life. I'm 23 and it happened to me.
- —Guest It can happen to you too
Two Weeks Smoke-Free
- I needed to quit smoking for my health's sake. I was tired all the time and short of breath. I'm using the nicotine patch as a quit aid and nibbling on sunflower seeds to help with cravings. Reading the forums gives me the strength to keep going. 2weeks 1day 12 hrs 48 mins....feeling better every day and my energy is really coming back!
Being the Only One Left with a Cough...
- We all got flu - my family and work colleagues. They all got better. I got a horrible, phlegmy cough that just exploded without any warning at any moment, in meetings, on the phone, kissing my kids good night. Out of the blue a vile, loose 'cough' would erupt. What was different about me and them? I smoked, no one else did. I realized, today a lingering cough... tomorrow, lung disease. So I quit.
Visiting the Cancer Unit
- I have quit smoking again. The last smoke I had was on Saturday evening after I visited my friend in the Cancer unit of the hospital. It's been hard, my head is a little fuzzy, but I am taking it one hour at a time. I started working out (3 days a week) last month with the intention of quitting. It's been hard but I have given it over to God and trust Him that I will keep being a non-smoker. I have two children, a husband and two grand-children that depend on me. I want to be an old grand-mother.
- —Guest Fonda
Pneumonia and Lung Cancer
- Pneumonia scared me. Found out lung cancer runs in my family.
- —Guest Scott
Taking Care of Myself
- I think fear is a big motivator for most of us, smoking just makes you more vulnerable to disease and illness. I can thank it for gum problems and periodontal disease, lucky really in comparison. I had to have a tooth removed and ended up with dry socket directly from smoking. I think the thing I will miss least about smoking is knowing health care people don't put 100% into someone that they think doesn't care that much about their health. I am 44 and on day 6, feel fantastic about my decision, it's a new lease on life really. I just started reading the forums and it helps greatly knowing more than just you are going through it. Funny it's just like divorce...though actually being a smoker has made it difficult to find a partner, most non-smokers just aren't interested, so I am excited to meet the other 80% of the population! stay positive and do it for you
Out of Breath Too Quickly
- I am one week in to my giving up smoking and am finding it surprisingly easy. I recently started back at the gym in January but after 18 years of smoking, I was struggling to run more than 2 minutes on the treadmill and becoming increasingly short of breath. I decided enough was enough so on the 1st of march I walked in to my local pharmacy and said I'd had enough of cigarettes ruling my life. If I'm gonna get healthy, I may as well go whole hog and get rid of the death habit. I can now only after one week run for 10 minutes on the treadmill with no problem!
Just Want to Live Better
- I decided at the age of 46 and after watching my mother and two aunts die from lung cancer that it was time to give it up. My chest is clogged and I want to breathe better. I have two daughters, a step-daughter, a grand-daughter, and a husband who want me around for much longer and at the rate I was going I realized I might not make it to the age of 50. So this is it. I have picked up my last smoke and I am done. I am ready to live again.
Time to Say Goodbye
- I'm 56, I've smoked for 38 years and have remained relatively healthy, or as healthy as a smoker can be up until 3 weeks ago when I started coughing and coughing. I left it and left it, thought it was my smokers cough, eventually when I started coughing up blood, I finally went to the doctor with fear in my heart. He has diagnosed a severe infection and I'm on 500gm antibiotics, but I am so relieved. It occurred to me that if I can get an infection in my lungs, I can also get cancer. I am now on day 2 of quitting. My biggest fear is weight gain, that is, until I read these heart rending stories, a small price to pay for my life. I would like to thank About.com for this website, it's inspired me to carry on giving up, and I smell like an Angel :)
- —Guest Bobbie
I Lost My Sight in My Left Eye
- I lost my sight in my left eye for a few minutes. I got so scared that I gave my tobacco to a co-worker and said to him, I just quit smoking!” Since then, which was about 7 or 8 years ago (I don’t count my time), I haven’t had the desire / craving to smoke. I believe that similar to some of those that had a near death experience, where they had a profound psychic change in their outlook, that I had a psychic change where my brain was rewired. In essence, I reached my bottom and surrendered, as I did with my alcoholism over 30 years ago. However, when I became abstinent from drinking, I transferred my alcohol addiction to a smoking addiction. My smoking, like my drinking was a symptom of my mental / emotional problems. I stopped medicating my depression with alcohol and transferred my alcohol addiction to a smoking tobacco addiction / nicotine.